Sheer randomness
Jun. 7th, 2026 11:04 pmI was thinking about this in particular because it was always one of my most popular fics in that fandom, and people often asked for a sequel to that story about Annie grown up (and still do now and then). I don't mind being asked, although it is definitely not happening because I've long since moved on, but it's a bit wild to consider the passage of time in that particular way.
(Annie is grown up and doing fine, btw.)
AMA answers (part 1)
Jun. 7th, 2026 09:33 pmVidukon Premiere
Jun. 7th, 2026 03:45 pmMy premiere was made last summer and is now finally live! I was flipping back through vidding discord and I've been saying "I wish I had a Miranda Bailey vidsong" since at least 2022, and I think I've been saying it at least a few years longer. I finally zeroed in on Florence + the Machine, and eventually this song started to seem more logical than some other options. So happy to have finally made my Bailey vid!
dog days (0 words) by seekingferret
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Grey's Anatomy
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death
Relationships: Miranda Bailey/Ben Warren
Characters: Miranda Bailey (Grey's Anatomy)
Additional Tags: Fanvids
Summary:
Happiness hit her like a train on a track
The Beauty's Blade Read-Along: Chapters 11 to 15
Jun. 7th, 2026 01:51 pmDrama Rec: Cage of Shadows (樊笼)
Jun. 7th, 2026 01:47 pm
(23 × ~15 minute episodes)
Nan Yanzhi infiltrates the mysterious Lingya Tower to find an antidote, navigating its deadly challenges with assistance from her mentor Zhuang Wujiu and allies she makes along the way.
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fic: slung on the lantern, a mast [m/m, Shetland]
Jun. 7th, 2026 05:30 pmAlso, if you’re not familiar, I really think you could read this one as an original m/m short story, no canon required. The tiny bit of backstory goes like this( goes like this )
No spoilers for the show here.
slung from the mast, a lantern (6075 words) by raven
Fandom: Shetland (TV)
Relationships: Duncan Hunter/Jimmy Perez, Alison McIntosh & Jimmy Perez
Characters: Jimmy Perez, Duncan Hunter, Sandy Wilson, Alison McIntosh, Cassie Perez (Shetland)
Additional Tags: Slow Burn, why is "co-parents to lovers" not a canonical tag
Every few minutes Jimmy’s feet leave the ground, and it’s only Duncan’s weight that keeps him down. It’s terrifying, every time it happens. All of this, suddenly, is terrifying.
(Or––Jimmy grieves, Duncan loves him, things work out okay in the end)
Babylon 5 WIP is finally complete!
Jun. 6th, 2026 08:21 pmThe Living and the Damned (23K, Londo/G'Kar, mature-rated)
Fixit (of sorts) going AU in 5x18.
Some thoughts on writing WIPs under the cut (not spoilery for this fic in particular, more like general musings).
( Under here )
I don't know - what do you all think? Do you post WIPs? Do you read WIPs? It's been a long time since I've been in a fandom that had a lot of WIPs, prior to getting into Murderbot last year, which is almost like old-school ffn/LJ fandom with its very high number of WIPs. Including a lot of unfinished ones! And that's part of what got me back into posting some of my longer fic in WIP form, because there is a certain excitement and energy to it that I miss. Plus, in non-fandom spaces, I've enjoyed serialized media for a very long time (comics, webcomics, TV shows, etc). But it is obviously not without its down side, and I don't think I was prepared for how much trouble I was going to have finishing things when they're being written WIP-style.
Me-and-media update
Jun. 6th, 2026 04:56 pmIn the Space poll, 44.7% went with Douglas Adams ("that's just peanuts to space"), and the other options were pretty evenly split. Books came second to hugs, 57.4% to 70.2%.
In the Legacy media poll, 82.8% of respondents have a lot of DVDs and access to a DVD or Blu-ray player. Far fewer have cassetts or VHS tapes, and there's only one other person who has Super8/MiniDVD/etc tapes. *high fives* "At this point, it's just a lot of old stuff, help!" garnered 31%. Thank you for your votes! ♥
Reading
A little more Cetaganda (Bujold, narrated by Grover Gardner), and that's all. I haven't even started the little Chinese grammar book I bought for 99 cents. *hides* (It's not that I don't want to; my attention span is currently not conducive to sitting down and doing one thing.)
Kdramas/Cdramas
I finished To My Beloved Thief, which had a slightly draggy ending, but was otherwise a delight. Historical magic realism ftw! It made me want to rewatch the old Hong sisters' version of the Hong Gil-dong story, too (unfortunately, not available in streaming).
Also finished Absolute Value of Romance, which
spoiler
navigated between the ending I didn't want (teacher/student romance), and the ending I craved (teacher is gay) to find a slightly unsatisfying middle ground. I don't know if Ga Woo-Su was actually oblivious to Ui-Ju's love confession or just ignoring it to avoid the awkwardness of rejecting her outright, but an unnecessary childhood connection and significant "first snow" moment kind of point to them getting together in the future, when a) that would still be completely inappropriate and jeopardise his teaching career, AND b) Ga Woo-Su has previously shown no sign of interest in her at all (imo). He and Yoon Dong-Ju are obviously boyfriends or pining for each other! Why on earth else would he have reacted so weirdly to being the second lead in Ui-Ju's webnovel? (Which, btw, was wildly inappropriate.) Someone please write me slash for this!! (Note to self: tag this post for Yuletide.)So now, in solo-watching, I've started episode 1 of Hong Gil Dong on my phone (ie, on my exercise machine), and gone back to The Spirealm (fantasy horror Cdrama) when I'm in front of the TV.
We're still watching Miraculous Brothers (contemporary thriller, time travel) with a friend at a rate of two episodes per week. The central character is a hot mess with no moral compass but somehow likeable enough that I'm engaged, and the mystery built around a cold case is pretty cool. I'd put it in the same category as Glitch and Sisyphus. Hopefully it will delve into the scifi/supernatural aspects more at some point.
Pru came over for some Love Scout, and even with our erratic viewing schedule, it's completely swoony and great. I think once we're done I'm going to zoom through it again by myself.
Andrew and I watched two episodes of The Story of Pearl Girl (Netflix Cdrama), but the acting is too melodramatic for him, and I want some humour in my shows, so I think we're calling it.
Other TV
We're halfway through the first season of Italian drama Blocco 181, which I heard about on
to wit:
leading characters steal drugs from drug dealers, argh,Finished season 1 of Scottish sitcom Dinosaur, about an autistic woman and her newly engaged sister. It's not laugh-out-loud, but I really like it and am looking forward to season 2.
A bit more Night Train with Wyatt Cenac on Youtube. Vaguely looking around for a new show, preferably English-language.
Audio entertainment
Writing Excuses, Cross Party Lines, and approximately a billion newbie lessons of ChinesePod. (I feel like I'm fiddling while Rome burns, but oh well.)
Writing/making things
This fic is never going to end. I don't even know why I'm writing it anymore. Maybe when we get to
Life/health/mental state things
Messing around with storage and sorting out stuff. Biking a lot. Battling brain weasels at night. I'm in my mid-fifties, and I don't know what I'm doing with my life. My arms are hanging in there, just.
Language Learning
I've been posting Chinese practice sentences, vocab, and occasional observations to
Goals
1. Sort out my stuff. Throw some of it away. (Do I want to start in on my books/DVDs? /o\)
2. Learn enough Chinese characters that I can read a graded reader.
3. Get started on the project of replacing my ancient gas oven with an induction hob/electric one.
Good things
Making sentences in a new language is really satisfying, and I love noticing grammar patterns and looking them up to see how they work. Podcasts generally. TV-watching-with friends. Walk in the bird sanctuary in the not-quite-rain. Good biking weather forecast for this week. Guardian and the Dreamwidth corner of Guardian fandom. *loves*
I estimate my fiction reading speed as
faster than average
29 (56.9%)
average
11 (21.6%)
slower than average
3 (5.9%)
it would be faster if my so-called attention span didn't keep dropping out
12 (23.5%)
depends on the language (I read fluently in more than one language)
6 (11.8%)
other
1 (2.0%)
ticky-box of 我喜欢在家里休息 (I like to rest at home)
17 (33.3%)
ticky-box full of ever more elaborate breakfasts
15 (29.4%)
ticky-box of a raindrop sliding down a glossy green leaf
24 (47.1%)
ticky-box full of stripes waiting for a cat
22 (43.1%)
ticky-box full of hugs
33 (64.7%)
The Everlasting (Harrow)
Jun. 5th, 2026 08:19 pmD: Is it about gobstoppers?
Me: No! It is not about gobstoppers!
-- the thing is, I had not been expecting all that much from it, having had previous experience not-intensely-negative-but-not-particularly-positive with Harrow Hugo reading, but I was pleasantly surprised to find the first quarter of the book more compelling than I'd thought it would be. Though I did have this sort of constant low-level irritation during that first quarter because -- well. It takes place as a secondary-world fantasy, taking place in a kingdom called Dominion, that's concerned with two time periods: what I have been calling the "modern era," which is a post-industrial, vaguely early-twentieth-century-feeling sort of place where the best and bravest young men are sent off to fight wars, remembering their semi-mythical founding myth... and the second time period is that distant 1000-year semi-mythical "past era," where there is a semi-mythical queen and her best-beloved knight, Sir Una the Everlasting, whose tragic death is instrumental in constructing the founding myth of the country.
And the thing is, it's probably not 100% obvious from that one-sentence description, but the "modern" era is extremely evocative of WWI-ish Britain what with the young men going off to war and coming back with shell shock and everyone keeping a stiff upper lip about it (except the protesters) and so on, and the "past" era is extremely evocative of Arthurian mythology, what with the once and future queen and the knights she gathers around her and the green hill and the sword in the
D: Are there coconuts?
Me: No! There are no coconuts!
And it just so happens that I have an absolute crapton of feelings about Arthurian mythology (over many decades at this point) and also a whole lot of feelings about WWI Britain (many of which are rather more recent, but even if it weren't for recent media consumption, would have had some feelings about it from general cultural literacy and other media) and it was very clear that Harrow was cheerfully just using all that to make me have feelings about her characters/world, and I was rather annoyed about this because it felt to me like she got to exploit all the resonances without actually having to do any work to, well, actually think hard about the historical/mythical parallels she was exploiting, and also annoyed because, of course, it worked, because I do have quite a few feelings about all these things.
D: Is there a holy grail?
Me: ...yes. Yes, there is a holy grail. There actually is.
D, unfortunately now encouraged: Is there a holy hand grenade?
Me: NO! There is no holy hand grenade!!
D, a little later: Well, is there a Black Knight?
Me: ...kind of.
ANYWAY. The book starts out being narrated by Owen, who is an idealistic, nationalistic, conflicted young man, back from the wars and trying to make his way as a historian. He's also obsessed with Sir Una Everlasting and her story
Me: See, the idea is that he's kind of a Malory figure --
...wait. His last name is literally Mallory. GAH.
D: *laughs at me*
Then I got past the first quarter mark, and it abruptly got both quite a bit more compelling to me -- so I didn't mind the above appropriation nearly as much (plus, by that time it had done its work), and also I started feeling very baffled by exactly how much it was giving off increasing vibes of being a really compelling shipfic. The thing is. I've actually spent quite a bit more time than usual in the last couple of months reading and thinking about fanfic, especially shipfic, for Reasons, and in particular thinking about what I seek out when I seek out fanfic, and what I want to see in a fanfic, and how to create the effects of a shippy fic I would like, and... this book is doing... a LOT of that.
For one thing, it's just piling on tropes on top of tropes (weak geeky man with strong tough woman, mutual pining, competence kink, loyalty kink, fealty kink, road trip, pulling back from betrayal, not pulling back from betrayal, hurt/comfort of course, lack of sleep, protection, nightmare comforting, bathing together, the list goes on, at one point there's even freaking Must Huddle Together For Warmth). And it's deeply satisfying to me because these are all tropes I eat up with a spoon.
And the ship is really very much a fanfic kind of ship, where we sort of assume we're starting out with UST between the two main characters and just building from there. (There are a couple of in-universe reasons for this, starting (but not finishing) with Owen's lifelong obsession with Una, but, like. The vibe!!) And over-the-top UST that goes on for quite a while is something that I am just really really fond of for shippy tropey fics. (Look, my fandom genesis included The X-Files, okay?)
Me: So by the 50 percent mark I was feeling kind of desperate for them to just have sex already.
D: ...uh, okay.
-- and the whole thing was doing this very fic thing of really just being there for the tropes and resonances. Worldbuilding, yeah, fine, great, as long as it reinforces the tropes! And yeah, this was sort of one thing about this book: I was never entirely convinced, I think, that the world existed outside of where the characters happened to be at the time... partially because it had borrowed so much from our world. (There was a bit more unique-worldbuilding near the end, as there sort of had to be.) But it didn't really matter... because you don't really read fic for the worldbuilding, right?
Character development, sure! As long as it reinforces the tropes, which means a lot of dwelling on the three main characters. I do think it's a natural tendency, mind you, especially in a shipfic, to really limit the number of people who have major roles in the fic, because each successive character means more interaction and more inner life that has to be constructed, and anyway you mostly just care about the ship and maybe the antagonist, sure. But I'm kind of amazed that Harrow wrote a whole novel in which there are three actual characters. And there are three more characters who do get screen time and whom I love very very much (Owen's dad -- does he even ever get a name??; Owen's long-suffering thesis advisor; Ancel -- the three of them are probably my favorite characters, in fact) but they do seem to me to have this aura of being taken a little for granted.
It also sort of reminded me of, you know, how you get these >100k fics in a fandom where it's really basically doing the same thing multiple times, or playing with the same fandom dynamic multiple times and stretching it out in ways that it didn't necessarily really have to, and the readers love it, because that's what we're here for. Right up to doing basically the same scene from two different POVs. (Again, there is an in-universe reason, but... very fic vibes, is all I'm saying!)
I believe this explains why I've been seeing such differing opinions of the book on my DW list -- because if you really like the particular tropes Harrow is piling on, you're probably going to be deeply satisfied by it regardless of whether you might have other issues (me, this is me), and if those tropes don't do much for you you're going to be like "what was even the point of that?" and if you like the tropes just fine but aren't particularly into them, the issues might bother you more.
( spoilers! )
Anyway. In conclusion, if you like a particular kind of tropey fic, then I think you will really love this book! (And if you don't, you will probably find it way too long and over-the-top.) Also it has more things to say about nationalism and national myths and fate and heroism and so on than I have really talked about here! I am just here for talking about shipfic, I guess.
D: I still think it should have been about gobstoppers.
Me: NO it should not have been about gobstoppers!!
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Jun. 5th, 2026 09:57 pmThe Ship Who Sang, in which a young woman gains beyond-human powers through being indentured to a corporation which provides her with wealth and status while simultaneously keeping her locked in endless responsibility and debt, loses the thing she cares about most in the world, and desperately seeks a life partner, eventually finding one in her manipulative boss
Crystal Singer, in which a young woman loses everything she cares about in the world, gains beyond-human powers through being indentured to a corporation which provides her with wealth and status while simultaneously keeping her locked in endless responsibility and debt, and, despite not seeking a life partner, nonetheless enters into a romance with her manipulative boss
The Rowan, in which a young woman with beyond-human powers loses everything she cares about in the world, gets indentured to a corporation which provides her with wealth and status while simultaneously keeping her locked in endless responsibility and debt, and desperately seeks a life partner, eventually finding one in the guy who at the end of the book succeeds to the position held by her manipulative boss
Obviously all of these books have their own unique points of distinction:
The Ship Who Sang kicked off generations of what-if-a-girl-was-a-ship stories and also generations of disability-in-SF conversations; it is also IMO one of the most interesting of McCaffrey's structural experiments, being composed of short stories that do generally work well as short stories, while creating a coherent and connected character arc for Helva across the whole set. Also: women! Helva gets to partner with women! Does she want to partner with women? Absolutely not. She wants a hot guy, or, failing that, a weird little manipulative boss who's obsessed with her. But nonetheless while waiting for her inevitable manipulative bossmance she has some interesting women thrust upon her, which I appreciate even if she does not.
The Rowan is the latest, structurally the weakest, and I think perhaps generally the worst of these books ... Killashandra has a bad personality and it's charming, but the Rowan's bad personality mostly comes out in the context of being a bad boss within her devil's-bargain corporation, which is less charming. Also there's sort of a halfhearted attempt at an evil aliens are attacking plot but the evil aliens take up approximately ten (10) whole pages of the book because McCaffrey finds them much less interesting than the Rowan's boyfriend, who is of course destined for her because he's the only hot guy telepath who's more powerful than she is. Anyway, the funniest part about this book is the fact that the Rowan gets a telepathic cat in the first section, and because everyone loves a telepathic cat the telepathic cat is on the front cover of the book, but then Anne McCaffrey is like 'yeah but she left the telepathic cat on the spaceship the first time she left home, they weren't actually that tight' and the telepathic cat is never mentioned again.
Crystal Singer is notable for the fact that Killashandra -- in addition to being a failed opera singer who has to pivot to harvesting addictive crystal with the power of her voice -- is the meanest and most self-interested McCaffrey heroine and also the one who has the most casual sex. A real delight to go from Avril Bitra in Dragonsdawn to Killashandra, who has all of Avril Bitra's traits except she's protagonist-shaped so instead of performing sexy torturemurder and getting fired into the sun, she reluctantly saves the life of a guy who hates her, complaining about it all the way. God bless! Has the most opportunities not to enter into a devil's bargain with a corporation to become a protagonist, and also has arguably the worst devil's bargain of the lot (crystal singing rots your brain! creepy!) and so I think is in many ways central to the Corporate Devil's Bargain thesis of it all: the subtext of The Ship Who Sang and The Rowan is that yes, the devil's bargain Is worth it, but Crystal Singer holds it up defiantly and makes it text. Yes, you were probably manipulated into it, and yes, it's going to end in tragedy, but look how cool you are now!
This all also sort of makes me look a certain way at Lessa, the OG bad personality heroine herself, and her arc in Dragonflight. It's more obviously a devil's bargain when it's a Big Corporation and not a cool dragon that loves you unconditionally -- but what are all these sexy manipulative bosses, except proof that Big Corporation actually loves you unconditionally? And yes, you were manipulated into it. No, you can't leave now that you've done it. Yes, the institution takes away your agency, by design, but broadly speaking, it's a benevolent institution -- or at least, society can't do without it. Anyway, now that you're part of this institution, you are now the coolest person in the world; everyone needs you, admires you, loves you, and you're happier than you've ever been. Of course it was worth it!
Scrivener themes!
Jun. 5th, 2026 06:55 pmAs a Mac user, this is exciting, because the Mac and Windows themes for Scrivener are not cross-compatible and I am pretty sure that every other Scrivener theme I have ever seen available for download is for the Windows version. But these come in Mac versions too! Now I can finally have a selection of pretty colors to choose from!
(This is also doubly exciting because the person who was making them was taking suggestions as they were posting them in packs to the subreddit and I asked if they could please make a version of the Cobalt2 IDE theme and they made a Cobalt2 IDE theme! For me! It's pretty great. I understand that not everyone wants Scrivener to look like their favorite VSCode or JetBrains theme, but I love this theme a lot, so.)
Neocities is currently down
Jun. 5th, 2026 07:14 pmAs the title says, Neocities is currently down. They posted on Bluesky:
"We're working on the DNS outage. It's not technical - someone is trying to legally attack us and Namecheap took down the domain. More details later."
Update: see third comment for more info!
Update the second: it's back up!
Okamoto Kanoko (1889-1939)
Jun. 5th, 2026 08:21 amIn 1910, at twenty-one, she married Okamoto Ippei, three years her senior and another of her brother’s friends, and apparently handsome enough to satisfy Kanoko’s preference for nice things to look at, from clothing to men (he is also said to have done a Leander, swimming the as yet unbridged Tama River to plead his suit to Kanoko’s family). Their son Taro, later to become an avant-garde artist, was born the following year. Ippei became a successful cartoonist; Kanoko published more poetry and became one of Hiratsuka Raicho’s Bluestockings.
From 1913 on, however, she suffered something like a nervous breakdown, amid the deaths of her brother and mother and the births and deaths of her daughter Toyoko and another child; a fan of hers, Horikiri Shigeo, moved in with the family and (presumably) became Kanoko’s lover, with the approval of Ippei, who had his own history of playing away. Horikiri died in 1916. About this time, Kanoko began to devote herself to the study of Buddhism, while continuing to find success as a poet.
In 1929 the family took a three-year trip to Europe. Kanoko plunged into novel-writing upon her return (having published what she called “My Last Book of Poetry” in 1929), until her sudden death in 1939 at the age of fifty.
Sources
Nakae
Mori 1996
https://www.fujingaho.jp/culture/archives/g34529000/fujingaho115-culture-201031/ (Japanese) Photos and reproductions of contemporary articles
Zeppelin (1983)
Jun. 4th, 2026 08:15 amSuch is the case with Cathryn Mataga, who created several games for Synapse Software under her former name in the early 1980s. She transitioned in the mid/late 1980s and moved into a more behind-the-scenes role, with extensive programming credits through the 1990s and 2000s, notably on the groundbreaking Neverwinter Nights (1991), the first graphical MMORPG.
But today I'm going to talk about Zeppelin (1983), a multidirectional shooter she developed at Synapse for Atari 8-bit systems.

This game is not to be confused with Zeppelin (1982) from Microvations, nor with Zeppelin Rescue (1983) from Intercept Software, nor with Zeppelin! (1994) from Ikarion Software. Those are all unrelated games, which I guess either reflect the dominance of zeppelins in the cultural zeitgeist of the late 20th century, or else the fact that it's easier to get a game to look right when you're piloting a vehicle that's kind of slow and cumbersome to operate.
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You can play Zeppelin in your browser on the Internet Archive. On the title screen you have to press F1 to start the game, and you use the numpad to control it. If you can. Playing with a joystick might be easier, but that's beyond my level of Atari emulation expertise.


