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thinking about how as a kid I found zoos super boring - and I think my problem was that, at least at that time, the expected mode of engagement with zoos was to stare at animals and be amazed at how interesting/cute/different they look?

for me, learning context is what makes an animal compelling! eg: I did a project on temperate rainforests in grade 6, and learned about banana slugs as part of the ecosystem. and subsequently loved them, even though I hadn't cared about slugs previously! if I'd been shown a real live banana slug after having done that project, I would have been fascinated to just watch it, because I would understand what I was seeing, and know what to look for in its behaviour and appearance to connect with the things I knew about it!

if the zoos I visited in my youth had done more to contextualise my understanding of what I was seeing, I think I could have had a good time. but instead I was presented with a few fun facts and the opportunity to see the animals, the end. and so I found them the height of boredom.

fun facts are useless to me! WHY are they fun! what makes this fact relevant! what caused things to be this way!!

(I had a similar problem with most museums. except dinosaur museums, to which I came with my own contextual knowledge, and thus could appreciate and enjoy the things on display, even when the display didn't provide much information itself)


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oh!!! there's a plugin for joplin that allows android app users to see wordcount! and also to see line numbers, to make it easier to orient yourself within a long note! I love this


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several podcasts I follow do reviews of older SFF novels (either occasionally or as their whole thing), and it has me thinking again about a type of story I think used to be more common in western genre fiction, and it's one I rather miss.

The type I mean: a narrative which is checking in on a specific place or people-group at different points in its long-term history, where the overarching narrative project is on a scale of eras while telling smaller personal stories within that history.

Sometimes it's done within the context of a single book, like in A Canticle for Leibowitz. Sometimes it's between books over the length of a series, like in the Dragonriders of Pern series¹. Either way, you get to see the cycles of history, the way that things which seem urgent and current at one point become historicised and mythologised, and become the ancient context for the new urgent current events, whether the people involved realise it or not. I love this shit! I love context. I love seeing how things connect. I love how the very notion of history becomes one of the major characters in the narrative!

From what I see, the modern western sff genre has become more interested in more immediate stories. Which have their benefits too, and which are really wonderful in their own way! And there's plenty about these older stories that I do not miss at all.

Maybe there are authors out there writing era-spanning sff today, and I just haven't come across them because there are other aspects of what those authors focus on that are super not to my tastes, or because the book is a small indie publishing situation that doesn't have good word-of-mouth, or something else like that....these are definitely possible! But I do miss getting invested in this kind of story. It's fun!

¹I won't say that all the books I once loved that do this thing were GOOD books


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the names people choose - for themselves, their kids, their pets - is soooo interesting to me! but especially kids' names, tbh.

modern western culture places so much emphasis on the importance of the choice you make about your baby's name (compared to, say, the late middle ages, when half of all people in england were named one of the same few names) and since there's so much cultural weight on the choice, and it is by its nature a very public choice, you can tell a lot from the decisions people make!

what were their priorities, their influences, their values? what kind of naming community are they in, and how much does it fall in line with the rest of their country? so many factors go into each choice!

every time someone I know has a new kid, I'm always SO eager to find out the name...and then, if possible, get the story behind why they chose it! It's always so interesting!


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recently I was out birding with some folks who have never been birding before, and one of them commented that they were delighted to discover from me that an important part of birding is complimenting every bird you see

and it's TRUE. it is an important part of birding! telling the birds what a great job they're doing, how cute/handsome/gorgeous they are, etc is something I am ALWAYS doing. instinctively and automatically. and I am so pleased to be modelling this attitude to others! :D
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can't believe that before I was obsessed with birds I didn't know what my favourite season was -- each season has its benefits and drawbacks, after all.

but now it's obvious that spring is the best season! and not just because of the spring bird migration (though obviously the spring migration is great). looking for birds, looking at birds, and spending time in environments that birds like: all of these things have opened my eyes to all the other joys of springtime as well!

and spring begins as early as february now for me, because the signs of spring I know how to recognise can begin that early, whereas I used to feel like it wasn't really spring till the trees started leafing in may!


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the more you befriend people who go by a noun as a name, either online or in person, the more you get to have fun tripping up on words in sentences, like "hey why's this blog post about architecture mentioning my frien --oh right. words means things!" it's great. genuinely recommend.


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the curse of the crafter: looking at things and going "ok but I could make that tho"

ok but WILL you. and do you have the time!

it's amazing how many things I confidently believe I could make at this point


four

I really love that Queer as Fact puts significant effort into talking about as many different queer people as possible, from many different racial and cultural backgrounds, even when the subject is challenging to find info on in english or at all. And they do a good job at working to be respectful of people groups they're not a part of, and at being up-front when there's things they don't know.

Every individual episode is interesting of course, but also the impression that builds over time as you listen through the archive is a deeply felt sense of the intellectual truth I already knew, that queer people have always been present no matter where you go. It's nice!


five

did you know: anne carson translations of greek tragedies good actually. anne carson good at words. greek tragedies compelling and delicious. theatre!!!
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whoops it has been far too long, once again. sorry dw!!

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I have realised: in the past few years I've gotten in the habit of leaving comments in tumblr tags to compliment the fanart I reblog, and as a result I have gotten out of the habit of using commas, because they automatically insert a tag break. And this has bled over into all my writing, including fiction writing! But using commas appropriately does improve the clarity of writing, especially when you tend to write a lot of long sentences like I do...I am having to re-learn to be very deliberate about my commas.

This is a very funny problem to be having! Thanks tumblr!


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Last week I got to be in the presence of a small child asking me "why" questions about birds. Living the dream!

Small child learned from me about turkey vultures and mourning doves and starlings, as the birds that were most visible to her at the time to ask about. Occasionally I was stymied by what exactly she meant by "why?" -- like, what part are you wanting to know more about? Be more specific, please! But eventually I figured I could just treat "why?" as "tell me more, I'm interested," and that seemed to work well enough.

And then! The next day I got an update from small child's parent that she spotted a turkey vulture and was very excited, and talked about how I had taught her about them!! 🥺


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I have figured out how to use my camera to take close-ups of tiny things! Turns out the key is to use manual focus; the autofocus doesn't work when you're that close. This is very exciting!

Guess what this presages: BUG PHOTO SUMMER. I'm excited.


four

Sally Pointer videos are there to save the day....when things feel hard, watching her enthuse about how much fun it is to make mistakes and try things out and learn is a guaranteed mood improver. Thank u sally pointer <3


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I have been testing out various apps/programs for keeping personal notes, and think I might be able to use Joplin for a bunch of niches in my digital life, more than I was expecting -- exciting!

On the docket:
  • replace google keep, to jot down quick notes to myself

  • replace google drive, to keep semi-permanent lists I want to be able to edit while out and about (eg: list of things to look for while thrift shopping)

  • replace the folder in onedrive where I keep lists of many different things I want to track (eg: kinds of cheese and my opinions on them, all the artists I've seen live in concert, the timeline of all fandoms I've spent time in)

  • organize my ever-more-complex TBR list, which is what I was looking for a solution for in the first place

  • keep track of important details about friends and acquaintances' lives, since I can't rely on my memory to do that to a socially appropriate level

  • and I'm considering moving my personal project kanbans from Trello to Joplin too!


The one thing I'm specifically not going to move to Joplin: my fic-writing. The android app for Joplin does not have a functional word-count feature, and it turns out that IS a vital feature for me, unfortunately. So that will stay in Ellipsus for now, I think.
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sorting through my photos from the last two years with the intention of putting together a photobook to print for myself, and wow there are really some major transitions within 2023 and 2024 for me! some more visible within the photos than others, tbh. But the biggest change for this purpose is that I take SO many more photos than I used to…..genuinely not sure how I'm going to pare these down to a reasonable number, lol!


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Some bird photos are good because they are beautifully detailed shots that show you all the features of the bird. Some bird photos are good because they're fun.

This is absolutely the best photo of a dark-eyed junco I have ever taken.

bird pic! )


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I am trying out yet another weird mobile keyboard app, since the parent company of Typewise, the keyboard app I've been using for the last while, has become far too focused on ai for my comfort. The open source app store f-droid, though, has some interesting options on offer, and I am very compelled by Thumb-Key.

So far thumb-key is rather slow to learn, but I think its design will make it very fast to use in the long run. But the adjustment is hard in the meantime! I keep having to switch back to typewise in contexts where I need to be able to convey my thoughts efficiently, and then needing to remember to return to thumb-key when speed isn't as important so that I can continue practicing.

screenshot of the keyboard )

On my first day of use, my thumb-key typing speed got to ~15 wpm, compared with 35-40 on typewise, and over 100 on a physical computer keyboard. Today, after a couple days of use, I am at ~20 wpm. So I am feeling very slow!

But when I used to use the standard gboard mobile keyboard, I was both slower and less accurate than typewise enables me to be, and already I can see how thumb-key will be even better than typewise once my muscle memory learns where the letters are.

I just hope I reach that day soon!


four

tfw the automatic association you have with a particular concept is a terry pratchett quote. I'm an edwardian era gentleman casually tossing off a quote from one of the classic works that I know all gentlemen of my status are familiar with because we all studied the same texts in school, except instead of latin or something, it's Going Postal.

"that greatest of all treasures which is Hope"!!!


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Rereading old entries from previous years in my line a day diary and wow it is amazing how long it's been consistent that I regularly fail to go to bed at a reasonable time, become exhausted and miserable, and regret my choices. And then do it again.

I really wish bedtimes were easier for me!

Real nice though to see the way the overall tone of my entries perks up after I went on the right anti-anxiety med for me, midway through 2022.
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Listening to the going rogue podcast has made me more aware of just what it is that various behind the scenes people are doing in the making of a movie, and frankly it just makes me more astonished than ever that anyone does manage to create any actually good and cohesive movies. By their nature, movies are the work of many hands, and they all have to be working together on the same creative vision, and that is so hard...especially when it all has to be done within constraints of things like budget and top-down studio decision-making and everyone's schedules. And yet brilliantly good movies DO exist! Amazing!


two

I need to get out more with my camera again. Just hasn't happened much of late for a variety of reasons! But photography is fun.


three

did u know: it's fun to invent background OCs for fic, actually

fill the world with a sense that there are real people all over the place living their own lives, separate from our heroes and with their own priorities!

I love to read it. I love to write it!


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Recently I tried to look into whether there are known reasons that many woodpecker species have red on their heads. And I found one study that suggests that a nicely bright bit of red colouration on a woodpecker head is a way to show off for potential mates that you're good breeding material. Birds with brighter red are associated with having better body condition, and producing larger egg clutches, according to one study. They also have smaller territories, which might mean they're able to claim higher quality territory.

Very intriguing results! But this study was just looking at one species of woodpecker, and it's the only info I could find on the topic. Overall it's not a well studied phenomenon, unfortunately!
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it's funny, my approach to wordcount milestones in writing! when I'm very close to a nice round number, it really feels like a milestone. like: wow, I'm totally going to hit 1,000 words on this wip tomorrow!

then tomorrow comes and as expected I surpass 1,000 words but I don't pay much notice to it, I'm just cracking on with writing. the celebratory feeling is when the milestone is in sight, not when the milestone is reached. interesting.


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Recently I jumpscared myself while listening to bird songs. One of the recordings of the dusky grouse sounded like a creepy man making weird mouth noises into my ear! Thank you dusky grouse, well done, this is SUCH a funny sound to make as a bird!

(the second recording listed on this page: https://www.allaboutbirds.org/guide/Dusky_Grouse/sounds)


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turns out Christopher Chant fits exactly into the character type I most enjoy playing in zoom theatre. I reread The Lives of Christopher Chant endlessly as a kid, because it's just such a fun book! And now as an adult I can see how it sunk its little hooks into my brain.


four

I need to figure out a system for deciding which bird pics are for my rl-name presence online and which for my pseudonymous fandom presence online, so that I can post bird pics here sometimes. And also on my website in the bird shrine!


five

Found a new volunteering gig, went to my first meeting with them, and within a couple of days was trusted with login information for their entire website and email and social media accounts. And I might be the main website person now?

It's amazing what power you can accrue by dint of showing up and raising your hand.


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I have been mentally scrabbling around for the right word for. uh. years? to succinctly summarize for myself in private bookmarks a certain mode of fic writing that very earnestly and naively sands off all complexities in order to present a one-dimensional story.

My mind kept presenting "juvenile" to me but that's not actually the right word. But I could never get to the right word because juvenile was always standing in the way, preventing me from seeing past it.

This week the word "facile" came to me and like. close! so close!!! I could feel the conclusion of my quest within my reach! And then looking facile up in wordhippo presented me with "jejune" as an option and like -- yes! That's exactly it! I have never used the word jejune before in my life but I guess I am going to start now. In private, where the authors I consider jejune can Never see it.

Jejune! I DID IT.
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I have done too well at insulating myself from the relentless marketing of capitalism.....I forgot that black friday week is a thing and went in person to an electronics store on saturday to buy a new phone grip.

that store. had SO MANY. people, noises, flashing lights & images, maze-like aisles & displays, busy employees who couldn't stop to help me because they were already on a mission, etc.

I escaped with the phone grip I went for but. whew. that was a real experience.


two

so funny to think about my feelings on a lot of characters in mxtx novels on my first read vs on subsequent rereads. the number of characters I found boring, irritating, or incomprehensible who I now adore!

this post inspired by thinking about pei ming, an asshole who sucks (affectionate)


three

I have really been on a hell of a handcrafting kick of late. SOMEDAY I will get back to personal web dev! that's also a very exciting form of crafting!


four

sorting through a recentish batch of bird photography I did, and gosh did you know birds are SO cute and photography is SO fun?! I'm verklempt


five

Every time I watch a Sally Pointer video I get so fired up to do crafting! Her latest video is on a type of nalbinding, a technique working cordage into a bag or basket which has been used across the world and throughout history, back to the paleolithic era.

In this video she shows you how to make cordage from scratch, from whatever fibres you have available, and gives tips on what kind of fibre you might be able to easily access that's good for this kind of work.

Then she shows how to use the cordage to work both the single loop and the loop and twist variants on nalbinding, and walks you through how to use these methods to make a bag.

She demonstrates how simple they are to do, how adaptable to doing whatever it is you want with it, and how it's great to just do what feels right to you instead of following a rigid pattern. Perfection not required.

I really want to make myself a netted bag using this method now. And other useful "holding things" devices!
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I'm enjoying the thought that if a person reads any one of my fics from the last few years, yeah there's probably something birdy mentioned or present but it doesn't have undue narrative attention. but if a person reads a bunch of my fics, well, a suspicion will have to arise that it's a bit weird for birds to keep on coming up and being relevant like this in so many fics!


two

the problem with bookbinding is the steps that involve "let your project sit for hours to days while glue dries or paper flattens"

what do you mean I can't just hyperfocus and push through from start to finish in one inadvisable go


three

I've been thinking about the idea of formative fiction, and it's a concept I have always struggled with because like....how do you tell if a book or movie or whatever was actually formative, in that it contributed to forming you?

sometimes media has been obviously formative to me in that the wider experiences I had around a book did have noticeable effects on my life -- for example, how other people reacted to me reading it, or the experience of engaging with other fans of it.

or sometimes my enjoyment of a piece of media or engagement with it was reflective of other pre-existing formative influences in my life, in that I was only exposed to that media or predisposed to enjoy the things it's doing because of aspects of the environment I grew up in

or sometimes a piece of media took up an outsized amount of my attention and interest, or was particularly compelling to me on a visceral level from a young age, and which points to themes which continue to be a presence in the narratives I enjoy engaging with. but that doesn't mean the piece of media caused me to be interested in the theme, since it might have been speaking to an interest which was already within me. and it doesn't even mean that piece of media is was what made me realise I was interested in the theme?

so I'm really not sure I can say that any particular piece of media was specifically formative to me!


four

recently I was reading a short story that said something intended to be weighted with meaning about the hollowness and frailty of bird bones....I was immediately like: bird bones are thin and hollow but strong for their size! they are dense and they have a better mass to strength ratio than mammal bones! your metaphoric resonances are wrong!
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antiques freaks podcast, on the author of the victorian novel "varney the vampire, or the feast of blood": this writer has all of victor hugo's verve and none of his intelligence or talent

a sick burn! (and accurate)


two

well, the end of an era, last week I deleted both my twitter accounts. I haven't even gone on twitter in ages at this point but now it's final. farewell to what used to be!


three

it's amazing how every single bird is perfectly beautiful and astonishing in its own way

I love how much I love birds. the amount of joy and wonder and awe they bring to me every single day is extraordinary


four

I love having a changelog on my website, where I keep track of what updates I've made, so I can see the progress over time! very satisfying.

and it feels great to be back at it, after a break of about a month where I wasn't making any updates due to other stuff going on in my life!

the website to-do list is long. but all good stuff! and I'll get to it all eventually!


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wearing white shoes today and my brain is singing the corb lund song it's hard to keep a white shirt clean

the things I do for the aesthetique
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whenever I work on a sewing project that involves a lot of piecing scraps of fabric together in order to achieve the necessary size/shape of pattern pieces, I think to myself "piecing is period" thanks to bernadette banner. even though nothing I'm making is particularly period!


two

kinglets might be a load-bearing portion of my mental health rn and you know, I'm so valid for that. they're such perfect birbs


three

recently I was listening to a library & archives canada podcast episode about a collection of hebraica and judaica, and the collection manager was talking about a particular volume that was written out by hand by a non-expert in the 18th century, in the context of a village that didn't have access to a printing press

and the collection manager said he can't imagine what it would be like to want a book so much that you would take the time to write out the whole thing by hand in the evenings after your full day of work

and meanwhile I was like. when you were describing this book, my first reaction was that I want to try writing out a whole book by hand!! it sounds fun! and I don't even have the context of that being my only way to be able to have that book!


four

it's funny being in fandoms (danmei!) where the canon is horny enough that I actually do not read most of my blorbos as asexual. I have spent most of my fannish life casually accidentally assuming everyone's ace because there's no canon to explicitly contradict it. sure they love each other, but sex?? why would they want that?

but now. like. the sexual attraction and interest is right there on the page! in detail! so obviously it makes sense to write fic about it. even if, the whole time, I seem to have internalised it as merely one of the weird quirks of these particular characters, lol

(It just seems so fake to me that most people are allosexual!)


five

I need to learn not to gasp in delight and whisper "oh! hi there, friend!!!" when I see a cool bird near me that I wasn't expecting lol. birds tend not to like that!


six

thinking this morning about an SVSSS fic I wrote where a background character is wearing yellow....evidence that PIDW is set prior to the Tang era and the development of sumptuary laws proscribing the wearing of yellow for commoners? or evidence that airplane wasn't thinking very hard about sumptuary laws when he was writing? (or both? :P)
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recently I was telling someone about crop milk and it is such a delightfully cursed bird fact that I have to share it here too!

did you know that mammals aren't the only living things to produce milk? a select few bird species have independently evolved it too! pigeons, flamingos, and emperor penguins all secrete milk from their crop to feed their young! lactation is even stimulated by prolactin, the same hormone that causes lactation in mammals!

crop milk has fat and proteins, like mammal milk, but no carbohydrates. it's also got the various immune boosting stuff and other similar intangibles

In pigeons, crop milk is....not quite a liquid. it's a pale yellow semi-solid that has been compared to cottage cheese.

flamingos have liquid crop milk! but it's bright red that looks like blood!!

(the colour fades over time though, it only looks like blood for the first week or so after hatching)

all I've been able to determine about penguin crop milk is that it is "thick"


two

I love being able to just go into the css stylesheet for my website and alter a detail about how lists are formatted....and then that change is automatically enacted for every list on every page of my site! it's so cool. coding is cool!


three

just finishing up listening to a podcast episode about pterosaurs and *dreamy sigh* pterosaurs are just so cool you guys


four

me spitballing funny fic ideas with a friend, and oh shit now I really want to write one of them!

it's amazing to me now that I used to struggle so much with coming up with fic ideas to write...these days I have far more than I can actually get to!


five

something I learned recently: it does not matter WHAT name I changed my irl name to, a certain type of cis people will find a way to hear a feminine name no matter what your name is, if they read you as female

I thought I had just insufficiently considered what my name could be misheard as! but no the problem is not with me.


posting about pterosaurs DOES mean I had to update my dinosaur tag. bc pterosaurs are not dinosaurs and I needed my tag to be actually inclusive!
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I spent good portions of last weekend watching all of fd signifier's 3.5 hour video about kendrick lamar and drake, and then several others of his videos about rap/hip hop and its history. and wow that was great stuff and I really learned a lot!

a good video essayist is a wonderful thing and I love when someone's passion draws me into learning stuff about something I would never have bothered to look into on my own. and seeing why it's worth that passion!

guess I've found yet another youtuber to enjoy and always be behind on watching their videos lol


two

reading about birds, as you do, and this description of the yellow rail (a very secretive bird) is so funny: "if you see the bird well enough to actually note the back pattern, it is probably not a yellow rail"


three

wen ning: perpetual outsider 😭 not human enough for the humans, not corpse enough for the corpses, he doesn't fit in and belong anywhere!


four

truly one of the things I am able to provide to fandom is: someone says they want to read some fics that do x thing. I go digging through my bookmarks and provide a comprehensive and annotated personalized rec list. I cannot be stopped from doing this actually! you might get recs whether you want them or not :P
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oh!!!! the linkding github notified me that the code has been updated to allow for a default guest user profile, so that I can set things up so people looking at my shared bookmarks page can see things in a more useful form!!!

VERY exciting news that this functionality is going to be available. rn my linkding is great for me but it's really not a good UI for guests looking at my shared bookmarks

it looks like this update is going to be in the next release; it was committed the day after the most recent version of linkding was released. no rush for me to do this right away, then, as I need to wait for it to be included. but soon I will need to put aside time to see if the notes I left myself from my last update are good enough to be able to do another update smoothly!


two

hearing a nuthatch from my front porch always brings me joy


three

SHRIEKING.

I can do it!!! I can update my website! I have the power!!!

LOOK AT THIS.

I successfully logged into aviansoph.com via filezilla! and made my way through the very confusing directory of files, to find the ones that are for my main website instead of alllllll the linkding related stuff!

(filezilla's user instruction info online assumes you already understand the file structure of your own website, which is fair lol)

which meant that then I found my index file for my main page, and I'll be able to update that page and create more pages!

look out, world!!! aviansoph dot com is going to happen.


four

I have so many wonderful things in my life - partner, friends, household, house, community, hobbies, etc. and yes not everything is perfect, but damn I am lucky!

and I am so glad for all of you here who are part of my online community! 💖 you're one of those things I am lucky to have as a part of my life!!!


five

I'm willing to tentatively pronounce that my new strategy for keeping on top of dreamwidth is working pretty well -- so exciting! fingers crossed it stays that way!
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amazing to think that when I got into birds a few years ago, I had to work hard to train my eyes to learn to notice and see birds. and it was so effective that now I genuinely have trouble believing how oblivious I was to the birds around me for all the years of my life before that!

I am now that xkcd comic about experts overestimating what the average person knows, lol


two

sometimes people are Wrong on the internet and you have to step away without engaging in trying to argue with them about it and it's just like. I'm so strong and powerful actually, for succeeding at that.


three

reading endless useless articles with the same three pieces of advice on how to handle task initiation when you have adhd is ALMOST the same thing as initiating the task you need to do, right???


four

writing tgcf fic just has endless space for exploring Gender and it's so good


five

sometimes you just gotta sew 1.5 alteration projects and then reread a known-fave fic about it*

*it being "your feelings"
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it's wild to think how much of the span of my life I've been an internet/fandom person, in all the different ways I've done so over the years. I think I'm up to 24 years since I first got an account on a fannish forum!


two

something I would never ever have expected of myself from the first, like.....30+ years of my life. is that I'm enjoying finding ways of incorporating the colour pink into my wardrobe.

certain shades, and in certain ways -- it can really fit into the type of vibe I'm aiming for these days! I always avoided it when I was younger, and strongly disliked it as a child, because it was a "girly" colour and as a closeted-to-myself nonbinary person I was basically allergic to things that would make people see me as a standard-issue girl.

but there are ways to incorporate pink into outfits that don't make it read as "girl" but as "gay" and you know what. that's GREAT actually, it turns out!


three

bakkhai as translated by anne carson is SO MUCH FUN to put on in zoom theatre, highly recommend the experience


four

huh the master of demon gorge podcast episode about the chronicles of the eastern zhou kingdoms started with a history of the fiction genre in chinese, which is interesting to me because it comes quite directly out of a tradition of people writing down the stories they hear told in marketplaces and other informal contexts - which is to say, a tradition of folklorists. called the "school of small talk", and small talk is, I gather, still how novels are referred to today!

hello melding of my ur-special interest in folklore with my current interest in cnovels!!


five

this year's AOS announcement about bird species in north america has been released, and there's some big news! the common and hoary redpolls have been lumped into a single species! (along with the lesser redpoll)

from the various reading about redpolls I've done, I think this is a very good move, and I'm glad to see it's backed up with genetic analysis as well.

some of the other changes are very interesting too, but for me personally the redpoll news is the most exciting!
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one

I had a dream where I learned I was a shapeshifter who can turn into a common loon?! ok not the most convenient kind of bird to take the shape of, given that they can't walk on land and they need an entire lake's worth of runway to take off into flight. but still! extremely cool, and I would like to go back to the dream where I was in the process of learning the lore of loon shapeshifters, please


two

I enjoy the positive feedback loop of:

1. I enjoy ling wen as a character!

2. people talk to me about ling wen because they know I like her, so I need to gain knowledge and understanding of her to talk about her better!

3. now I enjoy ling wen even more as a character!

4. people come to associate me with how much I love ling wen, so I need to do deeper dives into REALLY understanding her, so I can do justice to her!

5. now I enjoy ling wen even more as a character!

etc

(talk to me about ling wen any time! :D)


three

tfw you like all your recent fic so much that you want to put all of it into the "author's favourites" series you created on ao3. but. that would kind of defeat the purpose of having a series that collects just my faves!

I'm in my SELF-HYPE ERA. where I feel good about the things I make and do!


four

yes I am extraordinarily behind in commenting on posts, replying to comments, etc. I have just been too busy of late! I hold onto desperate hope that maybe this weekend I'll have the time to catch up a bit.
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one.

we have lightning bugs in our backyard again this year! it feels so magical to me; I may have cried a few happy tears about it when I watched them the other night in the falling dusk

still feels weird to me though that everyone around here calls them fireflies - the last time they were a normal part of my life, I was a kid in a very different region than where I currently live, and lightning bugs is what everyone called them! it feels so much more cozy and homey to me; fireflies sounds very, like, the ten-dollar word you pull out for poetry


two.

sparkly brain: reading fic that makes you kick your feet in delight

exploding galaxy brain: writing fic that makes you kick your feet in delight


three.

I'm so glad that loving birds has unlocked within me the ability to find things cute

there are so many cute things in this world, it turns out!

(but birds are the cutest)


four.

me like how many different reading groups can one person be in 😅

- weekly orv/umineko book club

- weekly mdzs book club

- monthly chinese history paper club

- weekly tgcf read-along (yes I'm very behind)

- new addition, fortnightly yaoi studies reading group!

thinking back to the younger me who was desperate for a book club, but the only book clubs I could find were of people my parents' age reading Literary Fiction because reading is supposed to Improve Your Mind and that's how you do it

younger me would be so astonished that current me has so many fun groups to talk with about things we read, things that I WANT to read! current me is endlessly delighted.


five.

considering my fashion choices.....for any of my pants, do I want to add any decorative elements to them? to break up the vast swathe of unpatterned single colour, single texture. I'm thinking like how the edwardians used insertion lace, but just on top of the body fabric rather than actually splitting the fabric. and not quite as all-in as the edwardians were, lol! and it doesn't necessarily have to be lace, either

pants are just BORING, is the thing, at least until I can source pants-weight fabric in fun patterns and also learn how to sew pants. and adding decorative elements is much faster!
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WELL I now own an antique tatting shuttle so I guess lace making is something that could be in my future?

owning a tatting shuttle is something that could happen to anyone!


two

dang my dreaming mind went ALL in on creating a classic gothic narrative the other night. big manor house that you run away from as it goes up in flames and everything. good stuff!


three

writing is so cool and fun you guys!!!!

I just am NOT over how writing has become a fun hobby I LIKE TO DO ACTIVELY, instead of writing being something that I liked to /have done/

never would have thought that all those years of making myself write bc I liked to have written would lead me here to this place!!


four

last night I was reading a fic where tea-making and tea-drinking were so well described that I literally went to go reach for a mug of tea next to me. where there was no mug of tea because I had not made tea that evening!


five

the thing about listening to podcasts about birds is that they simultaneously fill me with joy and wonder about all the cool things I learn about birds, and also with despair as it inevitably comes up that so many species are threatened or at risk or in massive decline due to human activities, like climate change and pesticides and invasive species and commercial fishing practices, and so much more. it's heartbreaking!!
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one

me every night: THIS is going to be the night I get it right and am asleep at a good and reasonable time

me every night, hours past bedtime, not yet in bed: it's a total mystery how this has happened yet again!


two

last week's podcast learnings: hang on, my personal nemesis Li Shimin wasn't the only emperor called Taizong, there was a Taizong emperor of the Song as well?!

*goes to wikipedia*

aha, same characters for Taizong for both Tang Taizong and Song Taizong, and it means "Great Ancestor", I'm picking up what's being put down here


three

me looking at fic tags saying "eroticised blood drinking" like okay I'm listening..... and then I notice the "alternate universe: vampires" tag and yeah nah I'm outtie


four

sometimes you see unknown birds flying over a distant treeline going about their business, and you get so emotional (positive) about how many birds there are beyond your ability to perceive, living their lives and doing their things, that tears come to your eyes!


five

whenever I spend extensive time outside in a healthy ecosystem, I'm amazed at the sheer variety of different insects I see. like, other than all the mosquitoes and deer flies, I hardly see two of the same species, and yet I'm constantly seeing bugs! it makes me want to know about all of them, which is an impossibility because there's SO many!
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wow I thought I was going to be short on thoughts to crosspost this week but I just have SO MANY that you're getting a bonus sixth thought, instead of the usual five I constrain myself to


one

last week I looked over my spreadsheet of short stories/novelettes I've read, and my rate so far for 2024 is that of the 195 stories I've read (or started to read and then DNF'd bc no thanks), I liked 13 of them enough to rec

which is 7% of the stories

WHEW.

now, there are a few other stories in there where my notes read something like "this is a well written story but it's not for me" so the rate of GOOD stories is slightly higher than the rate of stories I personally enjoyed.

but still!!


two

tfw you go to a pride themed thing with a bunch of vendors and you leave without having purchased so much as a single sticker. The marketable local queer aesthetics appear to be: witchy, goth, cutesy, horny, or combinations of the above

no shade on those aesthetics! but they are not what I personally go for


three

do any of you have recommendations for a good podcast on the history of korea? the more ORV I read the more I'm like....yeah I Would actually like to add korea to my list of east/southeast asian history podcasts I listen to.

I did give a try to the one Korean history podcast I found when searching around, "The History of Korea" by Allen Lee, but I listened to 45 seconds of the first episode and had to bail.

1. his "favourite" piece of history is a violent conflict: my eyebrows are up and I'm worried he'll be one of those dudes who thinks about history solely as a series of wars to obsess over, but I'll keep listening for now, I might be pre-judging too hard

2. refers to the "medieval" era all around the world as being essentially the same: uh oh, I have significant concerns, especially after the first point. I'm highly wary! I don't trust this guy!

3. refers to "peasants and lowborns meekly accepting their lot" as the way things were in that worldwide medieval period: ok now I'm done. immediately. goodbye!!


four

god my linkding is devolving even more. I just restarted my server and the pages loaded nicely for like... less than 5 min and now I'm getting errors again. I really do need to make the time to try updating the version like betty suggested trying!!

maybe tonight?

ALSO I need to get around to making the rest of aviansoph.com work! see if I can figure out the FTP after my disheartening failure last time

but that's probably going to have to wait till like. July.


five

in almost every respect I appreciate that canadian culture is largely a shoes-off-in-the-house culture. HOWEVER. when I'm wearing cute shoes that are an important part of an outfit I've put together, I am personally victimized by this expectation!!


six

listened to a catbird singing in my dreams last night; listened to a catbird singing while biking to work this morning. life imitates art!

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