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Life update and being an adult
Nov. 17th, 2014 08:25 pmI feel like such an adult these days! It is a weird feeling.
(for the record, being an adult doesn't preclude making terrible life choices in the very recent past, cf my decision last night to stay up till past 1 am on a work night reading extremely pointless crap on the internet and as a result getting several hours less sleep than I need, and waking up in the morning hating everything because I just cannot function on limited sleep the way I managed to back in my university days.)
But the point is: I am CAPABLE of being a responsible person in ways I never have been before. And it is such a fabulous feeling.
CONTEXT:
( cut for discussion of bad mental state/life state )
Basically: for the first time in my life I am experiencing the conjunction of being mature enough to be able to be responsible for my life, and being physically/mentally capable of following through on that responsibility.
IT IS THE BEST.
I AM SO HAPPY.
(I am still not perfect. SO not perfect. I still have my brainweasels and I probably always will. And I will never be the get-up-and-go kind of person who's happiest when super busy. But. My level of functioning is unbelievable compared to where it was a few months ago, and I now have a future ahead of me of having an actual life that contains more than just dragging through work and coming home to find ways of wasting time until I can go to bed. And it is beautiful.)
(for the record, being an adult doesn't preclude making terrible life choices in the very recent past, cf my decision last night to stay up till past 1 am on a work night reading extremely pointless crap on the internet and as a result getting several hours less sleep than I need, and waking up in the morning hating everything because I just cannot function on limited sleep the way I managed to back in my university days.)
But the point is: I am CAPABLE of being a responsible person in ways I never have been before. And it is such a fabulous feeling.
CONTEXT:
( cut for discussion of bad mental state/life state )
Basically: for the first time in my life I am experiencing the conjunction of being mature enough to be able to be responsible for my life, and being physically/mentally capable of following through on that responsibility.
IT IS THE BEST.
I AM SO HAPPY.
(I am still not perfect. SO not perfect. I still have my brainweasels and I probably always will. And I will never be the get-up-and-go kind of person who's happiest when super busy. But. My level of functioning is unbelievable compared to where it was a few months ago, and I now have a future ahead of me of having an actual life that contains more than just dragging through work and coming home to find ways of wasting time until I can go to bed. And it is beautiful.)
